Everybody's Journal

[Scarlette]

I`ve been saving up to buy my Lady cosplay for Anime Detour. I`m really excited this year, more than last year, which is nice because I want to have a good time with good people.
After getting the cosplay hopefully I can save up again to immediately start creating her Kalina-Ann rocket. Other than that, I`ve been working regularly, getting out to dance the stress away, & on Facebook. Heh heh
Not likin` the Final Fantasy XIII craze. I was a fan long before it was even popularized here like it is now. I`ll get into it once everyone else stops sucking the Final Fantasy cock. Lmao~
My sister wants to start her own business for ball-jointed dolls. She wants me to be her partner. Heehee I`m so excited, something to look forward to & something to work towards.
I miss you guys, & especially that someone, they know who they are. Goodnight & sweet dreams~ :3

[ZaCloud]

I've been doing bad. Really, really bad. Right after the high point, I got trouble sleeping for several months, and it's been taking its toll on me. I turned in my 30 day notice to the landlord, and so needed to clean up (to also prepare for moving out some of my furniture so I can live with the kyoudai (younger bro n sis n her bf). Just that, along with the work week, strained me so much that now I've been too weak to do the rest of my work. Mom might have to help me tomorrow with the rest.

My chest hurts and I feel low-level panic at nearly all times, my back and stomach hurt, I'm stressed and depressed and lonely. I've been trying not to bother everyone about it but I don't know how long I can take it by myself... I couldn't do anything today. Anything at all.

There's so much I need to do and want to do but just can't. Nobody realizes that I've been in quiet desperation for months. But there's not much anyone can do anyway because it's all so vague and stupid, so don't worry about it... I just needed to vent somewhere...

I'll be moved out of here by May 3rd. I can finally stop breathing mold and won't have to be all alone anymore after all these years, will finally start having more money to get things I /need/ and maybe even things I want. Can finally have the means and energy to be creative again.

So there's hope. I just need to last till then. Today was just a really bad day in that regard.

[ZaCloud]

I'm doing a little better now, after a couple days of hibernating. Though then I had to rush on work to just barely make deadlines. I got some stuff moved out, will work on some more in the coming days, even if it is exhausting.

I just hope I can learn how to socialize without getting too stressed out. My lack of experience really makes it hard for anyone but family to tolerate me long enough for me to actually learn...

[The Waffle King]

it is 9 am and i am going to bed, and this is normal for me....


i really need a new job.

[wondersaiyan]

Well well, my life was glomped by one HELL of a monkey wrench a few days after I returned from The Land Of DZX @_@ I was about to hop into the shower to get ready for work Sunday when I heard the sound of water running, out of nowhere, somewhere in the house. I opened the door to the downstairs and was met with what sounded like a waterfall. So I took off running toward the sound. After almost shattering my kneecap from tripping over one of my cats (darn Tiny likes to snake around your feet @_@) I get to the kitchen. And there was the waterfall...coming from the ceiling @________@ So I rush to the basement to turn the water off, buuuuut...having just replaced all the plumbing down there(and I mean JUST replaced...like 3 months ago), I wasn't sure about the location of the main shut off valve. So, I run back upstairs to get my phone so I can call Matt and ask him about it. Now, every once in a while I get a super crappy connection when I make a call...and this was one of those times. He can't understand what I'm saying, and I can't understand what he's saying @_@ After a few minutes I finally make out enough words to find the damn shut off for the water. Meanwhile, the water had started to soak through the kitchen floor and go into the basement -_- So! Now I get to rip my kitchen ceiling out ;D The only good part about it is that it needed done anyway. I have had A LOT of problems with the plumbing at my place for a while, so the ceiling was already messed up. All fun on a bun......so so so SO fun -_-

[wondersaiyan]

Yay for updates! Pipes and such have been fixed/ replaced. Have been for a week or so. No more waterfalls ;D Didn't have to rip the whole ceiling down, either. Originally planned for that since my house is oooold, and we were figuring on the lovely asbestos tiles like the old houses had. Turns out that the ceiling wasn't old enough for any of that. So I wore THIS:




FOR NOTHING! lol


In other news:
Been trying to help get things squared away for a surgery my mom's been needing for a couple of years @_@ My step-dad kept having her put it off because he claimed they couldn't afford it (he needs that money for the bar and for cigarettes...MUCH more important, eh? >:c ) But now the doctors finally convinced him that she NEEDS it asap, and he can go f*ck himself. So yay. He's supposed to take vacation time for when this happens so he can 'take care of her', but I think she'd have better care from grass clippings. I expect to lose a lot of sleep for the 2 weeks she'll need help @_@ I can't take time off since I have no idea when the surgery is yet and you need one HELL of a notice for time off at Mooly -,-

Also this week, apparently my uncle on my dad's side (my real dad, that is...not the p.o.s. from before) had a stroke this week @_@ He's one of 2 total relatives I know from that side, and I used to go to his place damn near every summer when I was little. I was gonna go visit him in the hospital in Akron, but then I found out his brain started swelling and they sent him to Cleveland. He's to have some surgery action as well and afterwards they're only going to let his kids and wife in to see him. He's a tough old bastard, so I imagine he'll pull through ok. From what I hear the stroke left him a bit paralyzed on one side, and he has trouble speaking a bit, but his mind is still clear so yay -,-

Mooly is still a very silly place, and rarely in a good way. That part never seems to change lol I really want to punch a few people in the face. The ones who decide to make things more complex and difficult and time consuming. Two of us spent 6 HOURS doing something that should have only taken us 30-45 minutes TOPS. All because they had a huge list of rules on how we were to separate things. Rules that made everything easy as FFFFUUUUUUUUU for the next crew. And I mean what I scoop from the littler box could do the stuff easy. I hate 1st shift. Hate them! And they had the NERVE to whine about how my team didn't get our normal jobs done. HAAAAAAAAAATE! D:<

[The Waffle King]

I believe the legendary quantum "Josh Timing" effect has rubbed off on me.

So I'm on the cusp of getting a new lappy to replace my long lived desky. I (finally) organized all the files onto my a 300gb external drive and a 320gb internal drive that i put into an external enclosure. I also backed up my Steam games so I don't have to redownload them on the new lappytop. I opened my case to retrieve my 320 drive to find something interesting...

My one and only boot drive is SATA, usually there's this little L-shaped plastic guide above the pins to hold the cable in place. That guide has snapped off and is stuck inside my cable...Everything is being supported by the pins themselves, so if I'm not careful, those pins will snap off too. I have no idea when this happened, but i'm damn glad it survived this long.

Hang in there, Desky-chan, not much longer now.

[whicker]

Today, a Saturday-

felt like one of those dreaded Saturdays where you know that summertime is short, and soon it will be back to school.

I woke up on the late side. Had a meat sandwich on dry toast. Don't know why I toast the bread... Went for a longish bike ride in the sun and mixed clouds. Had the moments where the sunshine waves in and out from above the puffy clouds. Had more than one blood-sucking bug chase after me, yikes, pedal faster.

Got back, and cooled off in the stereotypical way by the air conditioner (let the air go up your shirt, you know you do it too). Watched Jeopardy of all things. Now ABC world news is on, talking about some bullet-point texan that wants to be president. Some group of blue-collar factory workers winning a shared lottery ticket...

If only I could put a jacks pizza in the oven. While it's baking, feed the cat with some fractional portion of the canned cat food that makes me gag. Fish out that stupid cracked lid and put it on the can. Eat 6 slices of pizza, and retire to playing either some A-1 game on the SNES or some rented N64 title.

The cat would be on and off my lap. I'd leave the front picture window's curtains open as the sun went down. Mother would complain after a certain point about other people "being able to look in" and close them. Some dead hours to follow which might involve just reading the newspaper, Nintendo Power, or programming/gaming on the Packard Bell.

Then the attempt would be made to watch Saturday Night Live. Soon get offended or bored or irritated by some agenda being pushed, watch Mad TV which would be hit or miss. (Let's say tonight was a hit with a Kenny Rogers impression, a good "Lowered Expectations", and the wrinkly lady clearing her throat).

Would have to retire at around 11:30-ish to bed because of Sunday morning church and get back in the daily groove of the inevitable junior or high school morning grind.

[The Waffle King]

So I'm totally running out of money, and scraping for freelance work has been nearly useless. I've burned through my savings just to finish up my bills this month, and probably won't make next month's rent on the first.

But things are changing.

Late last month my parents asked me to design a business card and poster for the band my dad is in, for free obviously. Why the hell not, so I did. My dad wanted a template poster that he could have the print shop fill in the gig information and just run the posters as needed. To get the file format correct, I called the print shop to ask about how they would prefer it. I got that info and ended up having a little conversation with the owner. I explained that I'm a freelance designer. He had me send him my resume. (I had sent him the same resume about a year ago, and he seemed really uninterested.)

Well, I got in touch with him today. He had me drive down so he could explain what he might be looking for. Well, I've walked out of there with a job. I start friday. My first design job and I've got my foot in the door on a career.

Finally.


Fuck. Yes.