Everybody's Journal

[Shadow Phoenix]

Need...sleep...too much work...

[ZaCloud]

Yes, you do.

Yes, it is.

I'd say think hard about whether you can keep this up. Think about what potential work-load might end up being next month and the month after. Will it ease up at all? Will it get worse? How bad will crunch-time at the end be? If it consistently looks like now, you might be best off dropping something, whether it's a class or an outside activity.

Prolonged exhaustion is bad, and the world tends to not let you recover sufficiently from it. There's a time window, and once it's passed, the damage remains no matter what. You start changing inside and out from it, mostly in a bad way. Please keep your health in mind. I'd give just about anything now to have either not gone to college, or taken a different (easier) degree so I could be some semblance of normal now, or something... You still have a chance.

[andrakon]

Ahh i just woke up from a good 12 hour sleep and boy do I feel good! Now to get a good meal and I'll be ready to tackle anything! So how are you guys doing? AHHH !ZOMBIES!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! Run away!! Save yourselves!! You can't have my brains!! (poor ZaCloud starving for brains in west virginia)

[wondersaiyan]

Holy crap I'm exhausted @_@ Last Saturday night was the start of a new management system at Mooly. We now have two co-managers on our shift, plus we're getting a new round of assistant managers. I'm all squee about the assistants I've had forever going away. They did nothing but cause A LOT of stress and stab you in the back (see some of my previous posts in here and you will know a lil of what I mean) But while I am yay for that, I am nervous about the co-managers. These are the same co-managers that our assistants would lie to all the time about what my team did all night. And some of the things I have heard the co-managers say about us definitely says that they didn't think much of us.

Of the two co-managers, we all prefer the one named Brandon. While he makes impossible requests often, he's quiet and lets us do our job most of the time. The other one, Krysten....oy. She's very stuck-up acting, and bitchy as hell @_@ She's the main one that would say horrible things about what my team did all night. She flat out said to one of our assistants once that what I was doing was 'just stupid, and a waste of payroll." They were 10 feet away from me, and I was doing something that that assistant had asked me to do! Of course, she acted like she had no idea why I was doing what I was doing. Yay for being professional, eh?

So as luck would have it, Krysten was on the starting line. However, methinks that MAYBE she is realizing that we aren't a bunch of lazy asses. She is finally seeing for herself what we do all night. And a few of her ass-kissers are getting a new light shown on them since she caught the one in a lie ^_^

They also changed our schedule so we come in at 10pm now instead of 11:30pm. They made us do this once before and it didn't work out, but I guess they all forgot that part. See, all of the stockers on our shift get off at 6:30am. Most of the time they don't bring their overstock back to us until around then. So us working til 8am worked out better because we were there to bin the overstock after they brought it back. When they makes us work the same schedule as the stockers, that means we leave when they do. Now what do you think happens to their overstock? It sits there since we aren't there to bin it. First shift has a cow when this happens. The co-manager ended up asking us to stay over 3 days in a row because of this problem. I stayed til about 8am the first day. So yeah, I wonder how long this 10pm-6:30am crap will last this time lol. I now have over 3 hours of over time ^_^

Now for the exhausted part. Lots o bugs be floatin' 'round these parts. Everyone is sick it seems. And I, for some reason, haven't been able to sleep worth a crap for several days now. So now I am sick. W00t! I am burning up, and have the a/c on as we speak I did get a lot of sleep last night, and all I seem to have is a bit of a cough and achy-ness (and the heat radiating from me thang @_@ ) So maybe I will get off a bit easy.

[wondersaiyan]

Hey y'all. All I really have to say is that I am a zombie @_@ I had about 12-ish hours o sleep after finally getting home from up thar at almost 1am @__@ In bed about 2:30-3am and up at 3pm to do the eatin' thang with family types (tuuuuurkeeeeey :9) Then went to work at mooly and had fun trying to keep the black Friday crowds from killing other peoples all night. Home by 7am, bed by 8am.....but had to get up at 11am to go to family place AGAIN to see my brother and all o his spawns (had to cuz I find it disturbing that I have seen y'all more than I have seen him over the past few years) Couldn't get away from them til like 5pm, came home to laundrify the mooly attire.....then couldn't sleep @___@ Hopped online for a bit then tried again.....My alarm was set for 9pm...last I saw the clock it said 8:40pm @____@ Ended up getting up at 9:30pm (LATE!!!!) Then went to work again. More physical work this time cuz o the forgotten freight from the night before @_____@ Going to bed now, I hope to get 11 hours. If not for that one decent 12 hour stretch in thar I woulda been unable to function. G'nite y'all! *sleepiest sleepy glomples ever for everyone!*


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[remixedcat]

I had 12 hours of sleep last nite and I feel icky. so hungry!

[wondersaiyan]

HOLY FRICKEN BURNT COW ARMS I IZ POSTIN' EVERYWHERE TODAY! ;D


*reads previous post I made...* Apparently I type like a hick when I am tired. oh well! ^_^


I tell ya what guys an' gals, I was almost thinkin' something was wrong with me all week @_@
I had a some-what long talk with ZC on the car trip home aboot my work probs and such that have made me uber emo and silent all summer. Some o yuns know a bit about what I am talking about. And also, I told the ones that know that things at work have been improving immensely since the higher up management are now on my shift and able to see what we actually do (The one even acknowledged to someone, in front of me no less, that I did the work of 10 people on this one particular night) The stress level went poof! I mean, there is still plenty of stress that comes with merely trying to get my job done after I spend half the night doing 2nd shift's job, but it's different now that I don't have to worry about the assistant managers that lied to the higher up management about what I did all night. I no longer have to worry about certain managers finding a wrong in every move I make, even when there were no wrongs to begin with. I no longer have to worry about getting wrote up for doing what I was told to do. It's friggen awesome. And I am crossing everything crossable in hope that it will last @_@ I had a really good week of making my coworkers raise their eyebrows at me. A few asked me if I was ok since I am normally kinda emo-ish ;D They were all quite confused as to why I was in high spirits all the time. Of course, I was still on a bit of a high from the awesome trip of awesomeness ^______^ Yaiz!


*super poofle floofle squeee glomps of mega ultra yay for all!!!* X3

[ZaCloud]

Just letting everyone know, this new year looks so promising, and I feel GREAT!!!

My emotions have been coming back a lot better lately. I've felt actual joy and pride in my work and inspiration to be creative again. ^_^

I'm storyboarding some amv's in anticipation for later doing 'em, I added a third chapter to a fanfic series that I started nearly a year ago (with fans begging me to continue), and am working on more RPG postness. We'll see what else I feel inspired to work on in times to come.

To top all this off though... I had a friend in the WCRPG, known there as Twitch, long ago, around high-school and during college. He was in the Army, so he'd often miss sessions, then he had to devote himself to officer's training and stuff. We kept in touch via snail-mail. I made him comics and drawings and stuff, trying to keep his spirits up.

Then he was getting a break, returning to civilian life, full of aspirations and goals. But then the Iraq issue came up, and I knew he was likely to be called back in.

I never heard from him again. Eventually I dug out his old letters, contacted the bases he had graduated from or been to. They all told me they had no records of him being there at all. Come on people! I can read a return address! I paid for various people-searches, but they only returned results for guys too old to be him. I kept ebbing between accepting that he was gone and that I wasn't authorized to be told, or renewing hope and searching again. Looking for articles, all kinds of stuff.

But then... last night I logged into the WCRPG for a session... and there he friggin was! He was ALIVE, and right there! Holy crap! He got text-glomps and text-beatings-up and more text-glomps. He said he had indeed been in Iraq, and involved in Hurricane Katrina. So the fact that he's alive is a friggin miracle in and of itself.

But the kicker is, he's resuming college since it'll be free anyway (and he's now in National Guard, so way less likely to be called out, plus there's mandatory break time from Iraq)... and he like me has been having a hard time socializing there. So he randomly was curious to see if that old rpg he used to be in is still around, and googled it back up.

But the site had been broken for a loooong time due to the old hosting service messing up... The guy in charge only re-posted an archival version two or three days ago.

Had he not at that exact time had the site up, Twitch might never have found us again, would have given it up as gone, and I'd never have known.

I already believed in miracles, this just helps add more to it. So many things lined up perfectly. I got my feelings back so I could fully enjoy it, he just happened to look for the site when it just happened to be there... It's crazy! After seven or eight years, my friend came back from the dead. And he's just as crazy and fun as ever, despite all he's come through.

I
am
HAPPY! ;D

[Scarlette]

January 15th, 2010 Friday: Hanging in my brother's room on his laptop

"Everybody's Journal"? Free to write out our thoughts?
Nothing too heavy on my mind these days- just missing someone~
Work is fun & simple, working hard everyday is my goal- even if it is minimum wage & part-time.

Glad to be home to help my mom & hang with my younger brother. The house is usually quiet, well, at least downstairs where my mom's room is. Upstairs, you can hear music playing from our rooms, or the wonderful melodies my brother plays on his piano: Silent Hill, Final Fantasy~ I always pause my music to listen to his playing, a sweet sound is always refreshing.

You know how people have that one person or a small group of good friends they go to for hanging out? I don't think I have that. I feel solitary for most of my time. I don't like labeling relationships: best friends, distant friends, acquaintances. All I understand is loving everyone I meet because somehow they've made an impression in my life- big or small. I suppose the point is, I've gotten use to being alone, yet- I still enjoy the company of others with the same compassion for strangers.

Right now, I can say I'm only anxious about missing one person. A lot going on, but time is yet again the factor to fix it. & I'm also left in suspense as to what will play out after once I make things right. :3

[ZaCloud]

What a past-several-days...

Mom's SUV's power-steering broke, so she had to borrow sis-in-law's car to go to work. But it would be needed by them after that. So she sent me after some parts she ordered, so I had to take them to her and give to the mechanic. But he found out more stuff was wrong, so we tried to locate replacement parts. Finally he managed to where we'd failed. But it was still up in the air when the car would be done.

So I had to haul Mom around for a few days and stay at their house. Which resulted in two hours of sleep the first night. @_@ Paul (me bro) wanted taken around town so I did, and we picked up the kyoudai (sis and bro-in-law) to see Avatar (at least that was friggin awesome. Cookie-cutter plot, but the visuals and original world more than made it worthwhile. I teared up four times. ^_^ ).

Couldn't fall asleep that night due to trying to help Dad out with his painful shoulder (I do pressure-point massaging that helps), then as usual everyone being up super early and being noisy. Then I had to wait around for Mom to get ready and go get a rental car. Then I had to go back to my home town and do the big huge category check waiting for me. Got done just barely in time, transmitted, went to bed around 3:30 am or 4am after having to wind back down.

Woke up after 12 hours of hibernation to a bad feeling that something was wrong with work. I checked my email... and sure enough, they'd apparently sent me the wrong schedule. So they were all grr at me even after I told them that I only did what the revision said to do. Which it turns out, they sent me the original again instead of the revision... Great.

So on a day where I should have been relaxing, I had to go back to Kroger and scan all the dry dog food, dry cat food, canned dog food, canned cat food, dog treats, cat treats, and cat litter. @_@ Hurt my neck with the giant bags of course.

Finally done, then I got home and sent it, then made dinner. One of those Banquet microwave meals; beef patty, noodles, and runny oily gravy. I heated it up, got it out with my left hand, closed the microwave door with my right... and for the first time in both decades of using a microwave, managed to pinch my finger in the door.

I jumped in pain, and the gravy splashed out all over my left arm. I'm surprised I managed not to drop it and get it on my legs too. Had to force myself to keep the burning hot sludge on there while I put down the tray (not an easy feat in a place with no counter-space) and wash off my arm. Nearly all of my forearm is red and sore. Two areas were blistering, but have since gone down after lots of cold water and aloe. But it still hurts.

*siiiiigh* So I'm watching a buncha raocow to kill brain cells so I don't feel the pain anymore. ^_^;; Ahh well, I'm still in a decent mood.

...Avatar friggin rocked. I wanna live on Pandora!

[ZaCloud]

Well, my arm's better... but for the past couple days I've had a grain of rice in my left lung. @_@ Yeah, it kinda didn't swallow with the rest and was in the wrong place at the wrong time when I inhaled...

This isn't that nice smooth white rice either, this is whole grain brown with a crunchy partial husk. At least that makes it easy to keep track of.

Which helped me find out what works and what doesn't in trying to get it out. Coughing had surprisingly little success. But singing and talking seemed to vibrate it upward effectively. So on Saturday night I went out to the car and drove to Mooly-Mart's parking lot (apartment = can't loudly enough). You know how I always say I couldn't sing to save my life? Well I literally was doing so, lol . Got it up to my vocal cords... but it wouldn't go any further. Coughing seemed to only lodge it more firmly.

I looked up airway anatomy and might have an idea why it won't go any further (I theorize it's caught in the fold of the "false vocal cords" up front)... But at least with it this high, it got some exposure to spit, so I've had two small bits of it (first being part of the husk) come up. Plenty is still left, but I guess it breaking down makes the small bits more likely to drift out than one big piece.

Still going to hope that it comes out in my sleep tonight. Cuz tomorrow will be the third day. If it doesn't, I might talk to a nurse at the local Good Samaritan clinic, see how long it might be before I'd need to worry.

Kinda sucks that right before that, I was singing better than I ever had before (or, at least matching pitch properly... how I actually sound I have no idea)... Now my throat's getting scratchy from the coughing and irritation. Hope it doesn't scar.

But then again, maybe that's WHY I was allowed to sing so well, so it'd occur to me to try it when the rice went down a while later. Oh well, either way, I'm sure it'll work its way out sometime.

[ZaCloud]

Well, airway's irritated and swollen today. And the clinic said they don't have the equipment to check down in the airway. But I can't afford emergency room and it's a big work week. So I'll give it a few more days and take a buncha Vitamin C and Zinc. Row row fight da... illness.

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Update: Tuesday

Well, soon as I woke up a big ol' chunk got coughed out. I dunno if that's ALL of it or not, but definitely the majority. It's... not pretty, but it was still a good sight. I'll have to wait for the inflammation to go down before I know if there's anything left in there or not. But yaaaay! ^_^

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Tuesday Evening

Well great, apparently that rice being there so long, and my throat trying to do weird things to get rid of it, have caused my swallowing to get all weird. Now I'm getting bits of carrot stuck in the exact same spot. And I was being very careful not to inhale too soon after swallowing... Ugh, I hope this doesn't become a permanent problem. It'd better not, or I'm gonna sue my throat. ~_~

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Night

Well, the carrot's either mostly or all out too as far as I can tell. I'll stay away from crumbly foods for a few days, let this heal over so nothing else falls into the trap.

[ZaCloud]

*sigh* Well, everything I ate was getting stuck in there now, and if I didn't eat for a while and got the piece out, spit got in there and burned. @_@ Airways aren't equipped to deal with digestive enzymes.

Trying to sleep was hell last night. I finally crunched up some antacids, then swallowed, KNOWING pieces of it would also get lodged in my airway. And it did. Which was good because while it hurt, it relieved the burning. But it was temporary. It got so that out of sheer frustration, I flexed my throat and airway muscles around, and found a way to at least reduce how much gets stuck in there. Will see if I can keep it up and get past this stupid random complication on my own.

[ZaCloud]

Me not sleeping right due to this food-in-windpipe-crap = being behind on work.
Snowstorms = being behind on work.

So I had to drive at a bad time when there was a slightly decent window to do my 250 mile trip to Kroger and back for a big category audit. That was around 1:30 am. And it kept snowing on and off anyway, hard to see and slippery as heck in many spots.

I was going down the freeway between 35 and 50 mph, depending on the area. In one particular spot about an hour in, I was going around 40-45 with an approaching left turn. Back tires didn't want to cooperate, and there was a small tornado in the road (could see it swirling the snow).

Car wanted to go into the left turn too much. So I tried to properly keep going and have the wheel corrected gently (without using the brakes). Usually that works. But the wind and momentum weren't allowing that. So I overcorrected, since I was getting way too close, and THEN the rest of my car rotated, now toward the right guardrail on the outside of the turn. That was gonna hurt.

So I knew I would have to slide on purpose. I hit my brakes and went into a reverse spin to the right, figuring that was all I could do to soften the impact. It worked; just scratched the entire bumper and nearly peeled off my license plate

I spun around a bunch on the rebound and the rear landed against the left guardrail. Nobody else was around, thank goodness. I checked for any fluid leaks, everything seemed fine, tires were fine, I made the rest of the trip.

Since so much has been going wrong for me all the time anyway, I was just like "Heh, this sucks" and that was it, didn't really bother me. Even if at the time it was kinda "is this the last thing ppl see before they die?" as the guardrail was approaching ^_^()

Got to Kroger at 4am, that took about three to four hours, then the drive back and I just got home around 10:35am.

I'm tired, my neck hurts, gonna take it easy for a while.
I'm lucky.

[wondersaiyan]

I apologize in advance for some of my words....All I can say at the moment is:







I F*CKING HATE YOU! YOU DAMN MANIPULATIVE LEECH! AND I ALSO HATE THE ONE YOU LEECH FROM! NEVER HAVE I SEEN SOMEONE SO F*CKING BLIND AND STUPID! STOP IT! STOP IT! STOP IT!






And no, this is NOT directed to anybody on here... so no worries *glomps you all, even sephy lol*